This Better Not Be One Of Those Bad Things That Come In 3's!!!

So I thought that I had worked out my ranting the other day about the moron sperm donor. . . Oh I was so wrong!! K so heres what happened to stir this up again. My grandma (who is one of the coolest ladiest you'll ever meet-no joke) works at the gas station by my house (its like across the street and down from me) and she calls me and says "Guess who just came in here barely?" and I had no clue who would be there that would get a phone call til she said "Sam." I felt like I was going to throw up. First of all he lives in Provo and works in Spanish Fork (so he says) so there no reason for him to be coming around here, like none at all-no friends, no family, noone is out here for him. My grandma also said that he was completely out of it and seemed high as a kite. . .SURPRISE-not! And also that he was in there with an other equally shady looking guy. That got my blood boiling and I was so scared at the same time. I called Colt and started crying cuz it makes me nervouse that hes around here, he literally scares the hell out of me, I locked the door and kept lookin out my windows. Luckily he never showed up here. I'm sure he was just going to score some drugs in the city. So I calmed down and I started thinking. Ya know what pisses me off more than anything? I know that he was so close to my boys and didn't even think of them one time. I doubt they even crossed his mind at all. I hate him so much its insane. He better never show up here, EVER!! Ugh I hate him! I'm done for now, update tomorrow maybe :)

I forgot how exhausting pregnancy is!

(this is not a good pic lol, I was 15 weeks in this picture and i look grumpy as crap lol)

I am 17 weeks today!! I've been feeling pretty stinkin good lately pregnancy wise thank goodness, but holy crap, am I exhausted!! Its a good thing I'm used to sleep deprivation so I'll be all set when this little gummy gets here ;) I've been feeling the baby move more and more! Its pretty active during the day now! I love feeling it moving, it makes me smile! I am not lookin forward to looking like a house though, I'm not too excited about getting so big, but hey its all worth it in the end! Chance and Ayden are getting more and more excited about the baby too! They went to our appointment with us on the 15th and loved hearing the heart! They're going with us to the ultrasound on May 5th too! We are so excited to finally find out what we're having! Honestly I hope we get a little girl (of course I'll be totally excited for either) I could use a little girl :) I'm out numbered here! People keep saying I need to post pictures of my pregnant belly. . . hmmm we'll see, I'm not too keen on the idea, but maybe lol. I just feel like a chubba bubba! Theres the preggers update :) not much has changed really just getting more and more anxious and excited!!

Ayden is doing fantastic on potty training the past two days! No accidents at all both days, AND he went all the way through the night last night without a single accident!! We are so proud of him! Hes doing awesome!

Chancellor is doing awesome also. Hes super full of it and has started to figure out that Ayden will do pretty much anything he tells him to. Then he tries to get him in trouble for doing what he told him to do. Ahh the joys of parenthood lol! Hes a really good helper though and has really been a huge encouragement to Ayden with potty training! I'm so lucky to have 2 really good kids :) even when they're naughty they're not too bad lol. Love bein a mommy though that's for sure!!

Really?! How stupid can someone seriously be??

Okay for those of you who don't know already, my ex husband is one of the most moronic people you'll ever meet or hear of in your life!! I'm not just saying that cuz hes my ex, really he has no redeeming points about him. He is grade A trash! He doesn't pay child support-which is only $564 a month total, which isn't anything!! He hasn't paid a dime. He very rarely checks to see how they're doing and he doesn't even have any rights over them. He lost all custody and parental rights back in August of 09' best thing ever!! He has a drug problem, with literally everything. He used to say "whats your drug of choice? What do you got?" UH LOSER!! He also is a pathalogical liar, he always has been! Well any who he texted me yesterday-I haven't heard from him in over a month and before that he went seriously 6 months with no contact (which is fine with me)-It was one of his rare times he asks how they're doing and this is exactly how the conversation went. I'm writing this straight from my inbox on my phone.

Sam:
Hi meags how r u doin? How r the monkeys? Sorry I haven't kept in touch I have just been super busy with work and workin with major crimes and gettin ready to move. Whats new friend?

Me:
Uhhuh. Sorry I took a sec to respond I am making dinner. I am good. The boys are great. They're just outside playin with a cap gun and sidewalk chalk with Colt. They're great though.

Sam:
Well awesome, good to hear. Not that u would b worried but my workn with major crimes is a good thing. I have been talkin to a detective about inturning and doing ride alongs after work a few days out of the week. But its been great helpin gettin scum off the streets. Don't say anything to anyone please. No one knows but I wanted u to know what I have been up 2 since ur the beautiful mommy to my boys.

I didn't even write back after that because his stupidity doesn't warrent a response. He is so full of shit. I don't and can't believe him further than I could throw him! If you know Sam, you know that there is no way he would be working with Major Crimes unless he was going to prison. Cops don't recruit junkies. I have proof from one of our very close friends who is also friends with Sam that hes been doing cocaine and heroine. SURPRISE!!! NOT! He always used to come up with these kind of stories when I was married to him. Duh like I'm not gonna know!? Really??!! I know that the texts make him sound like hes making and effort and all that, but you know he can take his "effort" and shove it cuz I don't care nor do I believe his bogus bull shit lies. Oh and I love how he makes it sound like hes moving out of his parents house and going out on his own. Cuz I know for a fact he's just moving to Payson with his parents who bought a house down there. I talk to his parents still, they take the boys out to dinner every couple of weeks so I'm pretty solid on whats going on. He just makes it so much easier for me to make sure that I keep MINE AND COLT'S boys away from him. I will fight him to the death to make sure he will never have my kids to screw up! He is not a good father, he never has been. Hes not even a good person. He would screw the boys over the second he had a chance, hes proved it time and time again. He steals his dads guitars and amps and pedals and pawns them (seen it a number of times) he steals money and medication from his parents. He staged a break in at his house where his parents flat screen, Sterio, and PS3 were all stolen and pawned. Wow what a winner! UGH I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!! I can't wait to watch him go down in flames when his bull shit gets the best of him. The best thing that has ever happened was him losing his rights. He just proves over and over that Colt and I are doing the right thing. Our boys will be totally fine without Sam in their lives. They have the best daddy in the world with Colt. I am so happy that we moved on from Sam and his stupid junior high drama! Colt and I have the best kids in the world and its all been our hard work. We've had to undo so much damage that Sam inflicted on the kids and they have made such a 180. They are different kids thanks to Colt and him being so wonderful and there for them. He has saved me and my boys and I am so grateful for him! Words cannot express how much I love and appreciate Colt. Sorry I had to vent cuz this whole text situation makes me so angry, but now I feel much better lol!

Bebe Update and Thursday Adventures

We went to the doc yesterday and we were able to listen to little gummy's heart. It took the doc a minute to find it because the baby was sleeping and curled away from the mic thingy, but he finally woke it up and we heard its heart. It was at 135 bpm which is perfect. We also got the big ultrasound scheduled for May 5th, we are so stinkin excited!!! My belly has also been doing some pretty strange things lately. I'm finally starting to get the weird deformed look that ya get when baby is curled up on one side lol. It makes me and Colt laugh pretty hard. The boys went with us to the doctor and they were so excited to hear what the baby sounded like, they've been showing more and more interest in the baby and I'm lovin it!! All except Chancellor informed me yesterday, as he grabbed my chubby love handle, that I "have some fat hips" and then he giggled and walked away. Thanks bud!
Chancellor had his first friend birthday party yesterday! His friend Dominik from church had a Pirate Party. I walked Chance up to the door and went to give him a hug and kiss and he was already headin over to his all his friends to play. It stung a little cuz my little boy is growin up and doesn't need his momma to reassure him or give him a hug and kiss before he goes to play. It did make me happy though cuz its so fun to watch the kids grow up and have friends and play, I love watching them grow. It truely makes me so so happy! Since Chancellor had his party, Colt and I took Ayden to a park up in Cedar Hills. We played Batman, Robin, and Batgirl and climbed all over the playground then Ayd and I got in the little stream and walked up and down in the water hunting sharks. Grandma Yevette and Aunt Kristi (Colts step-mom and sister) came to the park and hung out for a bit and we had a creamie then headed to pick Chancey up from his party. It was such a fun fun day! I loved spending one on one time with Ayden and seeing Chancey have so much fun with his friends. I loved hearing our baby and seeing how happy is made Colt. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!

Sweet Emotion

I was looking through some pictures today of my little sister, Addie, that her and her friend Heather had taken. Some of them were inside of Addies dads house and then there were some outside on her dads property and her grandparents property(and they are absolutely gorgeous); for those of you who don't know my crazy family situation let me just fill you in. My mom married Cal Wimmer when I was 3 years old and during that marriage Addie was born (I was 7) and then my mom and Cal divorced when I was 12, so I spent most of my childhood in that home. The ones of Addie inside didn't have a strong of an impact on me, because the house has been totally remodeled so its not like it was when I lived there. So I enjoyed lookin at her bein silly but they didn't hit me like the ones that were taken outside did. I first noticed they were on the property when I saw that she was standing on a board that is over the ditch in the back yard, and all of a sudden it felt like I got hit in the stomach but it was happy.

I love that property and all the fun memories that I have there. I didn't realize the impact it had on me until today. I mean I think about the fun things I did growing up, but it was nothing like this. It was like every fun time I had with my friends and family outside just flooded back to me in like living color! I could almost smell the dirt from the garden and the dirt hill and all the trees and the grass. It was so strange to me to have that happen cuz nothing has ever hit me like that. Thanks pregnancy. I loved looking at them and remember all the silly games we had and everything we learned growing up by playin our hearts out all day. It seems like things are so much more complicated now, not just as an adult but being a kid nowadays is kinda crazy! I wish it were still as safe as it was when I was growing up. We would play on that huge property all day long-from sun up til sun down. Nowadays there is no where for kids to have those kind of adventures, at least it doesn't seem like it. I miss those days and I hope that my kids can have just as wonderful times as we did growing up! Childhood is so simple and pure and beautiful and I am so glad that today I was reminded of the beauty of it all. I think I needed that :) PS don't I have the most gorgeous little sister!?

Weekend adventures :)

I love the weekends that we actually do something other than our normal routine. It gets too easy when you're in a cycle that works with the kids and life to kinda just stick to that and not go outside of it at all. And don't get me wrong I do love our little family cycle, its juts nice to have a little change once in a while, I think its essential.

We had a pretty fun weekend around here this weekend! Friday we went over to my moms and hung out there with her and Addie (my little sister) we love going and playin over there! The boys absolutely adore my mom and Addie and it makes them so happy to go and play. While the boys are there, Colt and I don't exist. They want nothin to do with us, and then proceeds to tattle on me to my mom. Funny little stinkers! Chance told my mom that I am "A bossy mom" and that I made him go to his room because he "didn't even do anything"; Ayden told her that I "broke his heart" for getting after him after he pretty much tried to football tackle me from behind while I was at the top of my stairs lol. Yep, I am such a mean mommy, that's for sure, poor kids ;) haha I love those tattle tails.

Saturday was pretty laid back, which was nice. We just hung out for a while around the house and then we went to Wal-Mart to pick out some new movies for the weekend. Normally the boys have great taste in movies and usually get the classics like the Batman movies and Jurassic park, but instead this time they got Super Mario Brothers-the TV show from like 1989 and the cartoon Transformers. Yay lol! We got the kids happy meals from McDonalds (they were stoked for their dragon toys) and Colt and I got Texas Road House take out. . . Mmmmmmmm de-freakng-licious!!! It was a lot of fun to just come home and watch the movies with the kids and eat our take out, the kids loved it! Sunday the boys went to church at 10, they go every weekend usually with grandma Clare. They really love it and are making friends in the ward, Chancellor even volunteers! So Colt and I went out to breakfast at IHOP and ended up running into my grandparents there and we ended up chatting and eatin with them. I laughed as we were leaving and told Colt "Haha we do the same things that my grandparents do, we're like an old married couple!" SOOOOOOO true though lol. We went to Wal Mart before pickin the kids up at church and Colt got the Wii game hes been wanting for months now-Super Mario 2. He has since pretty much played non-stop and even thrown a few cute tantrums :) haha, but hes happy about it. (And he makes fun of me for having a slight Facebook addiction and a blog. Psh!)

Then we ended our super fun weekend with a date just Colt and I on Monday. We went and saw Date Night and laughed our butts off and then laughed harder because we totally relate to how it is to be an old married couple with kids. We're realizing how old we are a lot more lately ;) We even managed to run into my grandma Phyllis (same grandma from IHOP) and my great aunt Lolly at the movie theater. . .again lol! After the movie we went to Applebees and had some dinner before picking the kids up from my moms (they tattled again haha). It was a great night. I love going on dates with Colt, hes my favorite!! I love that after all this time together I am still so madly in love with him and we still love to date each other whenever we are able too!

I am just so stinkin happy with how everything has been going! I'm the happiest I have been in years and years. My kids are the happiest they've ever been and things are going great and are just going to keep getting better. Oh yah, I am now 15 weeks pregnant (as of Friday) so hopefully we'll get to find out if Gummy is a boy or a girl within the next week and a half!!! So excited for that, I cannot wait!! Any who I think this has almost crossed the line into a novel so I will stop now before I bore ya anymore lol! STAY CLASSY SAN DIEGO AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY ;)

I need a maid!!

Neil Young had it so right when he said "A man needs a maid" (or woman I guess lol) I hate doing house work so much! I wish it were a perfect world and I could we wave our hand and have everything where it goes. My house has gotten to be the messiest its been EVER!! I got so stinkin behind on everything! How the heck does that happen!!?? I've been strugglin with it since December (how pathetic is that?!) when I got the friggen Swine Flu and Bronchitis, then I started gettin super sick in January, then we found out I was pregnant and I got SICK SICK SICK so needless to say my poor house has SUFFERED!! Its like an endless mess now lol, not even kidding! I am kinda starting to catch up on the clean laundry that needs to be folded and this morning I cracked out and cleaned the crap outta my front room. So at least now I'm getting somewhere. But with two little monkeys runnin around all day it gets so messy! I will get this house clean if it kills me within the next week or so! Mark my words! Its makin me nuts, so something has to be done!
On another note, Ayden is still workin on potty training. Things are going OK but could be better. I don't know if he is just too busy playin and doesn't want to stop to go potty or what the deal is but he had a rough day with it yesterday. Potty training is hard stuff, holy crap! I hope that he gets it soon. I told him that if he can go the whole day without an accident then we will go and he can pick out new underwear and a toy. I think we need to get an incentive for him, like some rewards for when he goes potty and goes without an accident. Hopefully he'll start gettin it soon, I just worry he doesn't really care enough about it, but he needs to get it done. We'll keep on keepin on with it though. Keep your fingers crossed for us!!
A BABY UPDATE!!! I have been feeling more and more flutters of it moving lately! I wish Colt could feel it, but that'll come soon enough. I am 15 weeks today and that makes me so excited!!! We have a doctors appointment on the 15th, just a normal check-listen to the heart and all that, so I'm going to ask my Dr. if we can schedule an ultrasound to find out what this little Gummy is! I CANNOT WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT WE'RE HAVING!! We are all so excited around here!! YAY!!
Colt and I are finally gonna go on a date this weekend! We haven't been on one it a while so I'm super excited. Colt said he wants to go up to SLC and go to dinner and movie, but we're not 100% sure what we're doing. I can't wait to go out though. I miss that. It feels nice to have some alone time and date again! I love dating him still even after all this time. I love still feelin like his girlfriend. Its nice! I love him so stinkin much!